Bipolar disorder is a psychiatric condition which can cause several changes in a person’s mood. People who are suffering from bipolar disorder fall in two categories — high moods (mania) and extremely low moods (hypomania).

During the manic phase, people lose their common sense to judge anything, while they completely withdraw from everything and everyone when in a hypomanic state. These changes in mood can seriously affect relationships since it contributes to how they interact with others.

If you are suffering from bipolar disorder, you may feel nervous whenever you are starting a new relationship.

It’s not easy making friends with having Bipolar 1. It’s even harder to recognize the friends you need to let go of. Pushing people away is typical behavior of people like me. Getting close and opening up my life to someone who doesn’t understand Bipolar disorder is a recipe for hurt feelings and sometimes depression. I’m good for awhile then something happens with a relationship and then I make a downward spiral when things don’t work out. I’m vulnerable like any other with this illness. At times I am just too trusting and feel if I’m going to have a decent life then I need to put forth effort and many times when I do, I wind up feeling even more alone than before. I don’t know how many more chances I can give. How much more hurt and rejection can or am I willing to take.

Bipolar Disorder

Bipolar disorder refers to the opposite ends of the emotional spectrum. A person may be depressed for a long period of time and show low energy, anxiety, and emptiness. When his energy is high, he may experience racing thoughts and feelings of power that can last for several days or months.

Depression

Depression is deeper than sadness. If you have this condition, you may feel helpless, hopeless, and worthless. You may loss interest in things you used to enjoy. You’ll experience changes in appetite, sleep problems, and even suicidal thoughts or actions.

When it comes to friendships people are not always going to accept you, for whatever reason, possible due to the stigma mental illness posesses.

Having Bipolar can be a tough thing for others to accept. They have this preconceived notion that we are somewhat crazy and perhaps to extent, we are. But not in the way they think.

It takes a special kind of person to take the time to understand us. I wish it wasn’t so complicated for people to understand us – or at least try. But until we can try to erase stigma this will continue to happen. And this is why I blog. I want people to know what Bipolar is and isn’t. In some of my earlier blogs I may have gone into depth a little more. I am focusing here on the rejection we get when someone we care about dumps us because of the unknown in our illness.

Rejection sensitivity is a psychological condition that causes a person to feel oversensitive to rejection or perceived rejection in relationships and social interactions. An individual with rejection sensitivity may perceive an unintentional snub or even being made to wait as deliberate rejection and feel severe, painful anxiety and perhaps even anger as a result.

A study found that in people with severe bipolar depression, increased pain sensations – particularly headaches and chest pain – actually occurred much more often in depressed patients who were also experiencing high levels of rejection sensitivity as part of their depressive episode.

When someone is depressed, a common symptom is perceiving that other people don’t like them or are rejecting them. Based on this study, it seems that specific pathways in the brain relate to depression and to these distorted perceptions about other people. Furthermore, when these pathways are disrupted they overlap into pain circuits, triggering physical discomfort, also a common symptom of depression.

What I found most interesting was the premise of an article – that depression, pain, the idea of pain and depression sharing similar wiring, I wasn’t familiar with the notion that rejection sensitivity was part of that brain loop.

Percieved rejection is when I take things to seriosly because to me it is. And it’s a struggle for on a daily basis. The saying “honesty is the best policy” is not always true. Sensitive people like myself need a softer approach to conflict. I’m not saying everyone need this, but I do.

I have always been too sensitive for my own good. If you hurt me bad enough down the rabbit hole I go. I’ve been working and trying to be tough in dealing with life’s pleasures disappointments. When I refer to life I mean people who have come across life path. I remain guarded. Learning to let go and not give that person any more amunition to use against me.

That’s just how it is. People do that to each other all the time. I have been victim to the cruelty of others on many occaision. Be prepared my Bipolar friends. Life’s a shit storm some days. Be strong in your beliefs. Be strong in you. The people that are meant to be in your life will stand by you and love you throughout the darkest times.

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